When you were young, we had some long nights. Bedtime was always the most stressful time of the day. I was always exhausted.
I wanted a quick bedtime.
Sleep was definitely not your thing back then.
So I would sing you lullabies.
I think I did it more to calm me down than you.
Now I understand that I was engaging my vagus nerve and parasympathetic nervous system with those long exhales and phrases.
Then, it just felt right.
There were three songs that were our favorites.
The first was Peter Paul and Mary’s The Water Is Wide.
One verse went like this:
There is a ship and she sails the sea. She’s loaded deep as deep can be.
But not as deep as the love I’m in.
I know not if I sink or swim.
It was a song about love.
The second was Amazing Grace.
Twas Grace that taught my soul to fear and grace my fears released.
How precious did that grace appear, the hour I first believed.
The third was Puff the Magic Dragon—a favorite from my own childhood.
It was about a kid who would play with his imaginary dragon all the time
But then he grew up and stopped and it was a little sad.
You used to play for hours on end with your stuffed animals, creating little worlds and personalities, and I loved watching you do that, and I hoped it would never end.
That was a song about wonder.
Together, we had love, grace, and wonder. Every night.
These were things I prayed you would find in a partner some day.
When you found Charlie, I knew my prayers had been answered.
He loves you fiercely.
He is full of grace. His family is full of grace, and if that’s not enough, he even has a sister named Grace.
He is filled with childlike wonder and fun, and he shares those things with you
I will not be singing you lullabies tonight because by now you’ve figured out that I can’t sing.
But I will be wishing both of you a life of love, grace and wonder